CHAPTER 30
The three years which followed the cholera will be long
remembered in Quebec for the number of audacious thefts and the murders which
kept the whole population in constant terror. Almost every week the public press
had to give us the account of the robbery of the houses of some of our rich
merchants or old wealthy widows.
Many times the blood was chilled in our veins by the cruel and savage
assassinations which had been committed by the thieves when resistance had been
offered. The number of these crimes, the audacity with which they were
perpetrated, the ability with which the guilty parties escaped from all the
researches of the police, indicated that they were well organized, and had a
leader of uncommon shrewdness.
But in the eyes of the religious population of Quebec, the thefts of the 10th
February, 1835, surpassed all the others by its sacrilegious character. That
night the chapel dedicated to the blessed Virgin Mary was entered, a silver
statue of the Virgin the gift of the King of France a massive lamp, a silver
candlestick, and the silver vases which contained the bread which the Roman
Catholics believe to be the body, blood, and divinity of Jesus Christ, were
stolen, and the holy sacrament impiously thrown and scattered on the floor.
Nothing can express the horror and indignation of the whole Catholic population
at this last outrage. Large sums of money were offered in order that the
brigands might be detected. At last five of them Chambers, Mathieu, Gagnon,
Waterworth, and Lemonie, were caught in 1836, tried, found guilty, and condemned
to death in the month of March, 1837.
During the trial, and when public attention was most intensely fixed on its
different aspects, in a damp, chilly, dark night, I was called to visit a sick
man. I was soon ready, and asked the name of the sick from the messenger. He
answered that it was Francis Oregon. As a matter of course, I said that the sick
man was a perfect stranger to me, and that I had never heard that there was even
such a man in the world. But when I was near the carriage which was to take me,
I was not a little surprised to see that the first messenger left abruptly and
disappeared. Looking with attention, then, at the faces of the two men who had
come for me in the carriage, it seemed that they both wore masks.
"What does this mean?" I said; "each of you wear a mask. Do you
mean to murder me?"
"Dear Father Chiniquy," answered one of them, in a low, trembling
voice, and in a supplicating tone, "fear not. We swear before God that no
evil will be done to you. On the contrary, God and man will, to the end of the
world, praise and bless you if you come to our help and save our souls, as well
as our mortal bodies. We have in our hands a great part of the silver articles
stolen these last three years. The police are on our track, and we are in great
danger of being caught. For God's sake come with us. We will put all those
stolen things in your hands, that you may give them back to those who have lost
them. We will then immediately leave the country, and lead a better life. We are
Protestants, and the Bible tell us that we cannot be saved if we keep in our
hands what is not ours. You do not know us, but we know you well. You are the
only man in Quebec to whom we can so trust our lives and this terrible secret.
We have worn these masks that you may not know us, and that you may not be
compromised if you are ever called before a court of justice."
My first thought was to leave them and run back to the door of the parsonage;
but such an act of cowardice seemed to me, after a moment's reflection, unworthy
of a man. I said to myself, these two men cannot come to steal from me: it is
well known in Quebec that I keep myself as poor as a church mouse, by giving all
I have to the poor. I have never offended any man in my life, that I know. They
cannot come to punish or murder me. They are Protestants, and they trust me.
Well, well, they will not regret to have put their trust in a Catholic
priest."
I then answered them: "what you ask from me is of a very delicate, and even
dangerous nature. Before I do it, I want to take the advice of one whom I
consider the wisest man of Quebec the old Rev. Mr. Demars, expresident of the
seminary of Quebec. Please drive me as quickly as possible to the seminary. If
that venerable man advises me to go with you I will go; but I cannot promise to
grant you your request if he tells me not to go."
"All right," they both said, and in a very short time I was knocking
at the door of the seminary. A few moments after I was alone in the room of Mr.
Demars. It was just half-past twelve at night.
"Our little Father Chiniquy here on this dark night, at half-past twelve!
What does this mean? What do you want from me?" said the venerable old
priest.
"I come to ask your advice," I answered, "on a very strange
thing. Two Protestant thieves have in their hands a great quantity of the silver
ware stolen these last three years. They want to deposit them in my hands, that
I may give them back to those from whom they have been stolen, before they leave
the country and lead a better life. I cannot know them, for they both wear
masks. I cannot even know where they take me, for the carriage is so completely
wrapped up by curtains that it is impossible to see outside. Now, my dear Mr.
Demars, I come to ask your advice. Shall I go with them or not? But remember
that I trust you with these things under the seal of confession, that neither
you nor I may be compromised."
Before answering me the venerable priest said: "I am very old, but I have
never heard of such a strange thing in my life. Are you not afraid to go alone
with these two thieves in that covered carriage?"
"No, sir," I answered; "I do not see any reason to fear anything
from these two men."
"Well! well," rejoined Mr. Demars, "If you are not afraid under
such circumstances, your mother has given you a brain of diamond and nerves of
steel."
"Now, my dear sir," I answered, "time flies, and I may have a
long way to travel with these two men. Please, in the shortest possible way,
tell me your mind? Do you advise me to go with them?"
He replied, "You consult me on a very difficult matter; there are so many
considerations to make, that it is impossible to weigh them all. The only thing
we have to do is to pray God and His Holy Mother for wisdom. Let us pray."
We knelt and said the "Veni Sancte Spiritus;" "Come Holy
Spirit," ect., which prayer ends by an invocation to Mary as Mother of God.
After the prayer Mr. Demars again asked me: "Are you not afraid?"
"No, sir, I do not see any reason to be afraid. But, please, for God's
sake, hurry on, tell me if you advise me to go and accept this message of mercy
and peace."
"Yes! go! go! If you are not afraid," answered the old priest, with a
voice full of emotion, and tears in his eyes.
I fell on my knees and said, "Before I start, please, give me your
blessing, and pray for me, when I shall be on the way to that strange, but, I
hope, good work."
I left the seminary and took my seat at the right hand of one of my unknown
companions, while the other was on the front seat driving the horse.
Not a word was said by any of us on the way. But I perceived that the stranger
who was at my left, was praying to God; though in such a low voice that I
understood only these words twice repeated: "O Lord! have mercy upon me
such a sinner!" These words touched me to the heart, and brought to my mind
the dear Saviour's words: "The publicans and harlots shall go into the
kingdom of God before you," and I also prayed for that poor repenting
sinner and for myself, by repeating the sublime 50th psalm:
"Have mercy upon me, O Lord!"
It took about half an hour to reach the house. But, there, again, it was
impossible for me to understand where I was. For the carriage was brought so
near the door that there was no possibility of seeing anything beyond the
carriage and the house through the terrible darkness of that night.
The only person I saw, when in the house, was a tall woman covered with a long
black veil, whom I took to be a disguised man, on account of her size and her
strength; for she was carrying very heavy bags with as much ease as if they had
been a handful of straw.
There was only a small candle behind a screen, which gave so little light that
everything looked like phantoms around us. Pictures and mirrors were all turned
to the wall, and presented the wrong side to view. The sofa and the chairs were
also upset in such a way that it was impossible to identify anything of what I
had seen. In fact, I could see nothing in that house. Not a word was said,
except by one of my companions, who whispered in a very low voice, "Please,
look at the tickets which are on every bundle; they will indicate to whom these
things belong."
There were eight bundles.The heaviest of which was composed of the melted silver
of the statue of the virgin, the candlesticks, the lamp of the chapel, the
ciborium, a couple of chalices, and some dozens of spoons and forks. The other
bundles were made up of silver plates, fruit baskets, tea, coffee, cream and
sugar pots, silver spoons and forks, ect.
As soon as these bundles were put into the carriage we left for the parsonage,
where we arrived a little before the dawn of day. Not a word was exchanged
between us on the way, and my impression was, that my penitent companions were
sending their silent prayers, like myself, to the feet of that merciful God who
has said to all sinners, "Come unto Me, all ye who are heavy laden, and I
will give you rest."
They carried the bundles into my trunk, which I locked with peculiar attention.
When all was over I accompanied them to the door to take leave of them. Then,
each seizing one of my hands, by a spontaneous movement of gratitude and joy,
they pressed them on their lips, shedding tears, and saying in a low voice:
"God bless you a thousand times for the good work you have just performed.
After Christ, you are our saviour."
As these two men were speaking, it pleased God to send forth into my soul one of
those rays of happiness which He gives us only at great intervals.
I believe our fragile existence would soon be broken up were we by such joys
incessantly inundated. These two men had ceased to be robbers in my eyes. They
were dear brethren, precious friends, such as are seldom to be seen. The narrow
and shameful prejudices of my religion were silent before the fervent prayers
that I had heard from their lips; they disappeared in those tears of repentance,
gratitude and love, which fell from their eyes on my hands. Night surrounded us
with its deepest shades; but our souls were illuminated by a light purer than
the rays of the sun. The air that we breathed was cold and damp; but one of
these sparks brought down from heaven by Jesus to warm the earth, had fallen
into our hearts, and we were all penetrated by its glow. I pressed their hands
in mine, saying to them:
"I thank and bless you for choosing me as the confident of your misfortunes
and repentance. To you I owe three of the most precious hours of my life. Adieu!
We shall see one another no more on this earth; but we shall meet in heaven.
Adieu!"
It is unnecessary to add that it was impossible to sleep the remainder of that
memorable night. Besides, I had in my possession more stolen articles than would
have caused fifty men to be hanged. I said to myself: "What would become of
me if the police were to break in on me, and find all that I have in my hands.
What could I answer if I were asked, how all these had reached me?"
Did I not go beyond the bounds of prudence in what I have just done? Have I not,
indeed, slipped a rope around my neck?
Though my conscience did not reproach me with anything, especially when I had
acted on the advice of a man as wise as Mr. Demars, yet was I not without some
anxiety, and I longed to get rid of all the things I had by giving them to their
legitimate owners.
At ten o'clock in the morning I was at Mr. Amiot's, the wealthiest goldsmith of
Quebec, with my heavy satchel of melted silver. After obtaining from him the
promise of secrecy, I handed it over to him, giving him at the same time its
history. I asked him to weigh it, keep its contents, and let me have its value,
which I was to distribute according to its label.
He told me that there was in it a thousand dollars worth of melted silver, which
amount he immediately gave me. I went down directly to give about half of it to
Rev. Mr. Cazeault, chaplain of the congregation which had been robbed, and who
was then the secretary of the Archbishop of Quebec; and I distributed the
remainder to the parties indicated on the labels attached to this enormous
ingot.
The good Lady Montgomery could scarcely believe her eyes when, after obtaining
also from her the promise of the most inviolable secrecy on what I was going to
show her, I displayed on her table the magnificent dishes of massive silver,
fruit baskets, tea and coffee pots, sugar bowls, cream jugs, and a great
quantity of spoons and forks of the finest silver, which had been taken from her
in 1835. It seemed to her a dream which brought before her eyes these precious
family relics.
She then related in a most touching manner what a terrible moment she had
passed, when the thieves, having seized her, with her maid and a young man,
rolled them in carpets to stifle their cries, whilst they were breaking locks,
opening chests and cupboards to carry off their rich contents. She had told me
how nearly she had been stifled with her faithful servants under the enormous
weight of carpets heaped upon them by the robbers.
This excellent lady was a Protestant, and it was the first time in my life that
I met a Protestant whose piety seemed so enlightened and sincere. I could not
help admiring her.
When she had most sincerely thanked and blessed me for the service I had done
for her, she asked if I would have any objection to pray with her, and to aid
her in thanking God for the favour He had just shown her. I told her, I should
be happy in uniting with her to bless the Lord for His mercies. Upon this she
gave me a Bible, magnificently bound, and we read each in turn a verse, slowly
and on our knees the sublime Psalm 103: "Bless the Lord, O my soul,"
ect.
As I was about to take leave of her she offered me a purse containing one
hundred dollars in gold, which I refused, telling her that I would rather lose
my two hands than receive a cent for what I had done.
"You are," said she, "surrounded with poor people. Give them this
that I offer to the Lord as a feeble testimony of my gratitude, and be assured
that as long as I live I will pray God to pour His most abounding favours upon
you."
In leaving that house I could not hide from myself that my soul had been
embalmed with the true perfume of a piety that I had never seen in my own
church.
Before the day closed I had given back to their rightful owners the effects left
in my hands, whose value amounted to more than 7,000 dollars, and had my
receipts in good form.
I am glad to say here, that the persons, most of whom were Protestants, to whom
I made these restitutions, were perfectly honourable, and that not a single one
of them ever said anything to compromise me in this matter, nor was I ever
troubled on this subject.
I thought it my duty to give my venerable friend, the Grand Vicar Demars, a
detailed account of what had just happened. He heard me with the deepest
interest, and could not retain his tears when I related the touching scene of my
separation from my two new friends that night, one of the darkest which,
nevertheless, has remained one of the brightest of my life.
My story ended, he said: "I am, indeed, very old, but I must confess that
never did I hear anything so strange and so beautiful as this story. I repeat,
however, that your mother must have given you a brain harder than diamond and
nerves more solid than brass, not to have been afraid during this very singular
adventure in the night."
After the fatigues and incidents of the last twenty-four hours, I was in great
need of rest, but it was impossible for me to sleep a single instant during the
night which followed. For the first time I stood face to face with that
Protestantism which my Church had taught me to hate and fight with all the
energy that heaven had bestowed on me, and when that faith had been, by the hand
of Almighty God, placed in the scale against my own religion, it appeared to me
as a heap of pure gold opposite a pile of rotten rags. In spite of myself, I
could hear incessantly the cries of grief of that penitent thief: "Lord,
have mercy on me, so great a sinner!"
Then, the sublime piety of Lady Montgomery, the blessings she had asked God to
pour on me, His unprofitable servant, seemed, as so many coals of fire heaped
upon my head by God, to punish me for having said so much evil of Protestants,
and so often decried their religion.
A secret voice arose within me: "Seest thou not how these Protestants, whom
thou wishest to crush with thy disdain, know how to pray, repent, and make
amends for their faults much more nobly than the unfortunate wretches whom thou
holdest as so many slaves at thy feet by means of the confessional?
"Understandest thou not that the Spirit of God, the grace and love of Jesus
Christ, produces effectually in the hearts and minds of these Protestants a work
much more durable than thy auricular confession? Compare the miserable wiles of
Mr. Parent, who makes false restitutions, to cast dust into the eyes of the
unsuspecting multitude, with the straightforwardness, noble sincerity, and
admirable wisdom of these Protestants, in making amends for their wrongs before
God and men, and judge for thyself which of those two religions raise, in order
to save, and which degrades, in order to destroy the guilty.
"Has ever auricular confession worked as efficiently on sinners as the
Bible on these thieves to change their hearts?
"Judge, this day, by their fruits, which of the two religions is led by the
spirit of darkness, or the Holy Ghost?"
Not wishing to condemn my religion, nor allow my heart to be attracted by
Protestantism during the long hours of that restless night, I remained anxious,
humiliated, and uneasy.
It is thus, O my God, that Thou madest use of everything, even these thieves, to
shake the wonderful fabric of errors, superstitions, and falsehoods that Rome
had raised in my soul. May Thy name be for ever blessed for Thy mercies towards
me, Thy unproffitable servant.
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A few days after the strange and providential night spent with
the repentant thieves, I received the following letter signed by Chambers and
his unfortunate criminal friends:
"Dear Father Chiniquy:We are condemned to death. Please come and help us to
meet our sentence as Christians."
I will not attempt to say what I felt when I entered the damp and dark cells
where the culprits were enchained. No human words can express those things.
Their tears and their sobs were going through my heart as a two-edged sword.
Only one of them had, at first, his eyes dried, and kept silent: Chambers, the
most guilty of all.
After the others had requested me to hear the confession of their sins, and
prepare them for death, Chambers said: "You know that I am a Protestant.
But I am married to a Roman Catholic, who is your penitent. You have persuaded
my two so dear sisters to give up their Protestantism and become Catholics. I
have many times desired to follow them. My criminal life alone has prevented me
from doing so. But now I am determined to do what I consider to be the will of
God in this important matter. Please, tell me what I must do to become a
Catholic."
I was a sincere Roman Catholic priest, believing that out of the Church of Rome
there was no salvation. The conversion of that great sinner seemed to me a
miracle of the grace of God; it was for me a happy distraction in the desolation
I felt in that dungeon.
I spent the next eight days in hearing their confessions, reading the lives of
some saints, with several chapters of the Bible, as the Seven Penitential
Psalms, the sufferings and death of Christ, the history of the Prodigal Son, ect.
And I instructed Chambers, as well as the shortness of the time allowed me, in
the faith of the Church of Rome. I usually entered the cells at about 9 a.m.,
and left them only at 9 p.m.
After I had spent much time in exhorting them, reading and praying, several
times, I asked them to tell me some of the details of the murders and thefts
they had committed, which might be to me as a lesson of human depravity, which
would help me when preaching on the natural corruption and malice of the human
heart, when once the fear and the love, or even the faith in God, were
completely set aside.
The facts I then heard very soon convinced me of the need we have of a religion,
and what would become of the world if the atheists could succeed in sweeping
away the notions of a future punishment after death, or the fear and the love of
God from among men.
When absolutely left to his own depravity, without any religion to stop him on
the rapid declivity of his uncontrollable passions, man is more cruel than the
wild beasts. The existence of society would be impossible without a religion and
a God to protect it.
Though I am in favour of liberty of conscience in its highest sense, I think
that the atheist ought to be punished like the murderer and the thief for his
doctrines tend to make a murderer and a thief of every man. No law, no society
is possible if there is no God to sanction and protect them.
But the more we were approaching the fatal day, when I had to go on the scaffold
with those unfortunate men, and to see them launched into eternity, the more I
felt horrified. The tears, the sobs, and the cries of those unfortunate men had
so melted my heart, my soul, and my strong nerves, they had so subdued my
unconquerable will, and that stern determination to do my duty at any cost,
which had been my character till then, that I was shaking from head to feet,
when thinking of that awful hour.
Besides that, my constant intercourse with those criminals these last few days,
their unbounded confidence in me, their gratitude for my devotedness to them,
their desolation, and their cries when speaking of their fathers or mothers,
wives or children, had filled my heart with a measure of sympathy which I would
vainly try to express. They were no more thieves and murderers to me, whose
bloody deeds had at first chilled the blood in my veins; they were the friends
of my bosom the beloved children whom cruel beasts had wounded. They were dearer
to me than my own life not only I felt happy to mix my tears with theirs, and
unite my ardent prayers to God for mercy with them, but I would have felt happy
to shed my blood in order to save their lives. As several of them belonged to
the most reputable families of Quebec and vicinity, I thought I could easily
interest the clergy and the most respectable citizens to sign a petition to the
governor, Lord Gosford, asking him to change their sentence of death into one of
perpetual exile to the distant penal colony of Botany Bay in Australia. The
governor was my friend. Colonel Vassal, who was my uncle, and the
adjutant-general of the militia of the whole country, had introduced me to his
Excellency, who many times had overloaded me with the marks of his interest and
kindness, and my hope was that he would not refuse me the favour I was to ask
him, when the petition would be signed by the Bishop, the Catholic priests, the
ministers of the different Protestant denominations of the city, and hundreds of
the principal citizens of Quebec. I presented the petition myself, accompanied
by the secretary of the Archbishop. But to my great distress the Governor
answered me that those men had committed so many murders, and kept the country
in terror for so many years, that it was absolutely necessary they should be
punished according to the sentence of the court. Who can tell the desolation of
those unfortunate men, when, with a voice choked by my sobs and my tears, I told
them that the governor had refused to grant the favour I had asked him for them.
They fell on the ground and filled their cells with cries which would have
broken the hardest heart. From those very cells we were hearing the noise of the
men who were preparing the scaffold where they were to be hanged the next day. I
tried to pray and read, but I was unable to do so. My desolation was too great
to utter a single word. I felt as if I were to be hanged with them and to say
the whole truth, I think I would have been glad to hear that I was to be hanged
the next day to save their lives. For there was a fear in me, which was haunting
me as a phantom from hell, the last three days. It seemed that, in spite of all
my efforts, prayers, confessions, absolutions, and sacraments, these men were
not converted, and that they were to be launched into eternity with all their
sins.
When I was comparing the calm and true repentance of the two thieves, with whom
I spent the night a few weeks before in the carriage, with the noisy expressions
of sorrow of those newly converted sinners, I could not help finding an
immeasurable distance between the first and second of those penitents. No doubt
had remained in my mind about the first, but I had serious apprehensions about
the last. Several circumstances, which it would be too long and useless to
mention here, were distressing me by the fear that all my chaplets, indulgences,
medals, scapulars, holy waters, signs of the cross, prayers to the Virgin,
auricular confession, absolutions, used in the conversion of these sinners, had
not the divine and perfect power of a simple book to the dying Saviour on the
cross. I was saying to myself with anxiety: "Would it be possible that
those Protestants, who were with me in the carriage, had the true ways of
repentance, pardon, peace, and life eternal in that simple look to the great
victim, and that we Roman Catholics with our signs of the cross and holy waters,
our crucifixes and prayers to the saints, our scapulars and medals, our so
humiliating auricular confession, were only distracting the mind, the soul, and
the heart of the sinner from the true and only source of salvation,
Christ!" In the midst of those distressing thoughts I almost regretting
having helped Chambers in giving up his Protestantism for my Romanism.
At about 4 p.m. I made a supreme effort to shake off my desolation, and nerve
myself for the solemn duties God had entrusted to me. I put a few questions to
those desolated men, to see if they were really repentant and converted. Their
answers added to my fear that I had spoken too much of the virgins and the
saints, the indulgences, medals and scapulars, integrity of confession, and not
enough of Christ dying on the cross for them. It is true I had spoken of Christ
and His death to them, but this had been so much mixed up with exhortation to
trust in Mary, put their confidence in their medals, scapulars, confessions, ect.,
that it became almost evident to me that in our religion Christ was like a
precious pearl lost in a mountain of sand and dust. This fear soon caused my
distress to be unbearable.
I then went to the private, neat little room, which the gaoler had kindly
allotted to me, and I fell on my knees to pray God for myself and for my poor
convicts. Though this prayer brought some calm to my mind, my distress was still
very great. It was then that the thought came again to my mind to go the
governor and make a new and supreme effort to have the sentence of death changed
into that of perpetual exile to Botany Bay, and without a moment of delay I went
to his palace.
It was about 7 p.m. when he reluctantly admitted me to his presence, telling me,
when shaking hands, "I hope, Mr. Chiniquy, you are not coming to renew your
request of the morning, for I cannot grant it."
Without a word to answer I fell on my knees, and for more than ten minutes I
spoke as I had never spoken before. I spoke as we speak when we are the
ambassadors of God in a message of mercy. I spoke with my lips. I spoke with my
tears. I spoke with my sobs and my cries. I spoke with my supplicating hands
lifted to heaven. For some time the governor was mute and as if stunned. He was
not only a noble-minded man, but he had a most tender, affectionate, and kind
heart. His tears soon began to flow with mine, and his sobs mixed with my sobs;
with a voice halfsuffocated by his emotion, he extended his friendly hand and
said:
"Father Chiniquy, you ask me a favour which I ought not to give, but I
cannot resist your arguments, when your tears, your sobs, and your cries are
like arrows which pierce and break my heart. I will give you the favour you
ask."
It was nearly 10 p.m. when I knocked at the door of the gaoler, asking his
permission to see my dear friends in their cells, to tell them that I had
obtained their pardon, that they would not die. That gentleman could hardly
believe me. It was only after reading twice the document I had in my hands that
he saw that I told him the truth.
Looking at that parchment again, he said: "Have you noticed that it is
covered and almost spoiled by the spots evidently made with the tears of the
governor. You must be a kind of sorcerer to have melted the heart of such a man,
and have wrenched from his hands the pardon of such convicts; for I know he was
absolutely unwilling to grant the pardon."
"I am not a sorcerer," I answered. "But you remember that our
Saviour Jesus Christ had said, somewhere, that He had brought a fire from heaven
well, it is evident that He has thrown some sparks of that fire into my poor
heart, for it was so fiercely burning when I was at the feet of the governor,
that I think I would have died at his feet, had he not granted me that favour.
No doubt that some sparks of that fire have also fallen on his soul and in his
heart when I was speaking, for his cries, his tears, and his sobs were filling
his room, and showing that he was suffering as much as myself. It was that he
might not be consumed by that fire that he granted my request. I am now the most
happy man under heaven. Please, make haste. Come with me and open the cells of
those unfortunate men that I may tell what our merciful God has done for
them." When entering their desolated cells I was unable to contain myself;
I cried out: "Rejoice and bless the Lord, my dear friends! You will not die
to-morrow!I bring you your pardon with me!"
Two of them fainted, and came very near dying from excess of surprise and joy.
The others, unable to contain their emotions, were crying and weeping for joy.
They threw their arms around me to press me to their bosom, kiss my hands and
cover them with their tears of joy. I knelt with them and thanked God, after
which I told them how they must promise to God to serve Him faithfully after
such a manifestation of His mercies. I read to them the 100th, 101st, 102nd, and
103rd Psalms, and I left them after twelve o'clock at night to go and take some
rest. I was in need of it after a whole day of such work and emotions.
The next day I wanted to see my dear prisoners early, and I was with them before
7 a. m. As the whole country had been glad to hear that they were to be hanged
that very day, the crowds were beginning to gather at that early hour to witness
the death of those great culprits. The feelings of indignation were almost
unmanageable when they heard that they were not to be hanged, but only to be
exiled for their life to Botany Bay. For a time it was feared that the mob would
break the doors of the gaol and lynch the culprits. Though very few priests were
more respected and loved by the people, they would have probably torn me to
pieces when they heard that it was I who had deprived the gibbet of its victims
that day. The chief of police had to take extraordinary measures to prevent the
wrath of the mob from doing mischief. He advised me not to show myself for a few
days in the streets.
More than a month passed before all the thieves and murderers in Canada, to the
number of about seventy, who had been sentenced to be exiled to Botany Bay,
could be gathered into the ship which was to take them into that distant land. I
thought it was my duty during that interval to visit my penitents in gaol every
day, and instruct them on the duties of the new life they were called upon to
live. When the day of their departure arrived I gave a Roman Catholic New
Testament, translated by De Sacy, to each of them to read and meditate on their
long and tedious journey, and I bade them adieu, recommending them to the mercy
of God, and the protection of the Virgin Mary and all the Saints. Some months
later I heard, that on the sea Chambers had broken his chains and those of some
of his companions, with the intention of taking possession of the ship, and
escaping on some distant shore. But he had been betrayed, and was hanged on his
arrival at Liverpool.
I had almost lost sight of those emotional days of my young years of priesthood.
Those facts were silently lying among the big piles of the daily records which I
had faithfully kept since the very days of my collegiate life at Nicolet, when,
in 1878, I was called by the grand English colony of Australia, formerly known
by me only as the penal colony of Botany Bay.
Some time after my arrival, when I was lecturing in one of the young and
thriving cities of that country, whose future destinies promise to be so great,
a rich carross, drawn by two splendid English horses, with two men in livery,
stopped before the house where I had put up for a few days. A venerable
gentleman alighted from the carriage and knocked at the door as I was looking at
him from the window. I went to the door, to save trouble to my host, and I
opened it. In saluting me, the stranger said: "Is Father Chiniquy
here?"
"Yes, sir," I answered. "Father Chiniquy is the guest of this
family."
"Could I have the honour of a few minutes' conversation with him?"
replied the old gentleman.
"As I am Father Chiniquy, I can at once answer you that I will feel much
pleasure in granting your request."
"Oh, dear Father Chiniquy," quickly replied the stranger, "is it
possible that it is you? Can I be absolutely alone with you for half an hour,
without any one to see and hear us?"
"Certainly," I said; "my comfortable rooms are upstairs, and I am
absolutely alone there.Please, sir, come and follow me."
When alone with me the stranger said:
"Do you not know me?"
"How can I know you, sir?" I answered. "I do not even remember
ever having seen you?"
"You have not only seen me, but you have heard the confession of my sins
many times; and you have spent many hours in the same room with me,"
replied the old gentleman.
"Please tell me where and when I have seen you, and also be kind enough to
give me your name; for all those things have escaped from my memory."
"Do you remember the murderer and thief, Chambers, who was condemned to
death in Quebec, in 1837, with eight of his accomplices?" asked the
stranger.
"Yes, sir; I remember well Chambers and the unfortunate men he was leading
in the ways of iniquity," I replied.
"Well, dear Father Chiniquy, I am one of the criminals who filled Canada
with terror for several years, and who were caught and rightly condemned to
death. When condemned, we selected you for our father confessor, with the hope
that through your influence we might escape the gallows; and we were not
disappointed. You obtained our pardon; the sentence of death was commuted into a
life of exile to Botany Bay. My name in Canada was A , but here they call me B
.God has blessed me since in many ways; but it is to you I owe my life, and all
the privileges of my present existence. After God, you are my saviour. I come to
thank and bless you for what you have done for me."
In saying that, he threw himself into my arms, pressed me to his heart, and
bathed my face and my hands with his tears of joy and gratitude.
But his joy did not exceed mine, and my surprise was equal to my joy to find him
apparently in such good circumstances. After I had knelt with him to thank and
bless God for what I had heard, I asked him to relate to me the details of his
strange and marvelous story. Here is a short resume of his answer:
"After you had given us your last benediction when on board the ship which
was to take us from Quebec to Botany Bay, the first thing I did was to open the
New Testament you had given me and the other culprits, with the advice to read
it with a praying heart. It was the first time in my life I had that book in my
hand. You were the only priest in Canada who would put such a book in the hands
of common people. But I must confess that its first reading did not do me much
good, for I read it more to amuse myself and satisfy my curiosity than through
any good and Christian motive. The only good I received from that first reading
was that I clearly understood, for the first time, why the priests of Rome fear
and hate that book, and why they take it out of the hands of their parishioners
when they hear that they have it. It was in vain that I looked for mass,
indulgences, chaplets, purgatory, auricular confession, Lent, holy water, the
worship of Mary, or prayers in an unknown tongue. I concluded from my first
reading of the Gospel that our priests were very wise to prevent us from reading
a book which was really demolishing our Roman Catholic Church, and felt
surprised that you had put in our hands a book which seemed to me so opposed to
the belief and practice of our religion as you taught it to us when in gaol, and
my confidence in your good judgment was much shaken. To tell you the truth, the
first reading of the Gospel went far to demolish my Roman Catholic faith, and to
make a wreck of the religion taught me by my parents and at the college, and
even by you. For a few weeks I became more of a skeptic than anything else. The
only good that first reading of the Holy Book did me was to give me more serious
thoughts, and prevent me from uniting myself to Chambers and his conspirators in
their foolish plot for taking possession of the ship and escaping to some
unknown and distant shore. He had been shrewd enough to conceal a very small but
exceedingly sharp saw between his toes before coming to the ship, with which he
had already cut the chains of eighteen of the prisoners, when he was betrayed,
and hanged on his arrival at Liverpool.
"But if my first reading of the Gospel did not do me much good, I cannot
say the same thing of the second. I remember that, when handing to us that holy
book, you had told us never to read it except after a fervent prayer to God for
help and light to understand it. I was really tired of my former life. In giving
up the fear and the love of God I had fallen into the deepest abyss of human
depravity and misery, till I had come very near ending my life on the scaffold.
I felt the need of a change. You had often repeated to us the words of our
Saviour, 'Come unto Me, all ye who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give
you rest;' but, with all the other priests, you had always mixed those admirable
and saving words with the invocation to Mary, the confidence in our medals,
scapulars, signs of the cross, holy waters, indulgences, auricular confessions,
that the sublime appeal of Christ had always been, as it always will be, drowned
in the Church of Rome by those absurd and impious superstitions and practices.
"One morning, after I had spent a sleepless night, and feeling as pressed
down under the weight of my sins, I opened my Gospel book, after an ardent
prayer for light and guidance, and my eyes fell on these words of John, 'Behold,
the Lamb of God, who taketh away the sin of the world!' (John i. 29). These
words fell upon my poor guilty soul with a divine, irresistible power. With
tears and cries of an unspeakable desolation I spent the day in crying, 'O Lamb
of God, who taketh away the sins of the world, have mercy on me! Take away my
sins!' The day was not over when I felt and knew that my cries had been heard at
the mercyseat. The Lamb of God had taken away my sins! He had changed my heart
and made quite a new man of me. From that day the reading of the Gospel was to
my soul what bread is to the poor hungry man, and what pure and refreshing
waters are to the thirsty traveler. My joy, my unspeakable joy, was to read the
holy book and speak with my companions in chains of the dear Saviour's love for
the poor sinners; and, thanks be to God, a good number of them have found Him
altogether precious, having been sincerely converted in the dark holes of that
ship. When working hard at Sydney with the other culprits, I felt my chains to
be as light as feathers when I was sure that the heavy chains of my sins were
gone; and though working hard under a burning sun from morning till night, I
felt happy, and my heart was full of joy when I was sure that my Saviour had
prepared a throne for me in His kingdom, and that He had bought a crown of
eternal glory for me by dying on the cross to redeem my guilty soul.
"I had hardly spent a year in Australia, in the midst of the convicts, when
a minister of the Gospel, accompanied by another gentleman, came to me and said:
'Your perfectly good behavoiur and your Christian life have attracted the
attention and admiration of the authorities, and the governor sends us to hand
you this document, which says that you are no more a criminal before the law,
but that you have your pardon, and you can live the life of an honourable
citizen, by continuing to walk in the ways of God.' After speaking so, the
gentleman put one hundred dollars in my hands, and added: 'Go and be a faithful
follower of the Lord Jesus, and God Almighty will bless you and make you prosper
in all your ways.' All this seemed to me as a dream or vision from heaven. I
would hardly believe my ears or my eyes. But it was not a dream, it was a
reality. My merciful Heavenly Father had again heard my humble supplications;
after having taken away the heavy chains of my sins, He had mercifully taken
away the chains which wounded my feet and my hands. I spent several days and
nights in weeping and crying for joy, and in blessing the God of my salvation,
Jesus the Redeemer of my soul and my body.
"Some years after that we heard of the discoveries of the rich gold mines
in several parts of Australia. "After having prayed God to guide me, I
bought a bag of hard crackers, a ham and cheese, and started for the mines in
company with several who were going, like myself, in search of gold. But I soon
preferred to be alone. For I wanted to pray and to be united to my God, even
when walking. After a long march, I reached a beautiful spot, between three
small hills, at the foot of which a little brook was running down towards the
plain below. The sun was scorching, there was no shade, and I was much tired, I
sat on a flat stone to take my dinner, and quenching my thirst with the water of
the brook, I was eating and blessing my God at the same time for His mercies,
when suddenly my eyes fell on a stone by the brook, which was about the size of
a goose egg. But the rays of the sun was dancing on the stone, as if it had been
a mirror. I went and picked it up. The stone was almost all gold of the purest
kind! It was almost enough to make me rich. I knelt to thank and bless God for
this new token of His mercy toward me, and I began to look around and see if I
would not find some new piece of the precious metal, and you may imagine my joy
when I found that the ground was not only literally covered with pieces of gold
of every size from half an inch to the smallest dimensions, but that the very
sand was in great part composed of gold. In a very short time it was the will of
God that I could carry to the bank particles of gold to the value of several
thousand pounds. I continued to cover myself with rags, and have old boots on in
order not to excite the suspicion of any one of the fortune which I was
accumulating so rapidly. When I had about $80,000 deposited in the banks, a
gentleman offered me $80,000 more for my claim, and I sold it. The money was
invested by me on a piece of land which soon became the site of an important
city, and I soon became one of the wealthy men of Australia. I then begun to
study hard and improve the little education I had received in Canada. I married,
and my God has made me father of several children. The people where I settled
with my fortune and wife, not knowing my antecedents, have raised me to the
first dignities of the place. Please, dear Mr. Chiniquy, come and take dinner
with me to-morrow, that I may show you my house and some of my other properties,
and also that I may introduce you to my wife and children. Let me ask the favour
not to make them suspect that you have known me in Canada, for they think that I
am an European." When telling me his marvelous adventures, which I am
obliged to condense and abridge, his voice was many times choked by his emotion,
his tears and sobs, and more than once he had to stop. As for me, I was
absolutely beside myself with admiration at the mysterious ways through which
God leads His elect in all ages. "Now, I understood why my God had given me
such a marvelous power over the Governor of Canada when I wrenched your pardon
from his hands almost in spite of himself." I said: "That merciful God
willed to save you, and you are saved! May His name be for ever blessed."
The next day, it was my privilege to be with his family, at dinner. And never in
my life, have I seen a more happy mother, and a more interesting family. The
long table was actually surrounded by them. After dinner he showed me his
beautiful garden and his rich palace, after which, throwing himself into my
arms, he said: "Dear Father Chiniquy, all those things belong to you. It is
to you after God that I owe my wife, all the blessings of a large and Christian
family, and the honour of the high position I have in this country. May the God
of heaven for ever bless you for what you have done for me." I answered
him: "Dear friend, you owe me nothing, I have been nothing but a feeble
instrument of the mercies of God towards you. To that great merciful God alone
be the praise and the glory. Please ask your family to come here and join with
us in singing to the praise of God the 103rd Psalm." And we sang together:
"Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me bless His holy name.
He hath not dealt with us after our sins; not rewarded us according to our
iniquities. For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is His mercy
toward them that fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath Here
moved our transgressions from us. Like as a father pitieth his children, so the
Lord pitieth them that fear Him." After the singing of that Psalm, I bade
him adieu for the second time, never to meet him again except in that Promised
Land, where we shall sing the eternal Hallelujah around the throne of the Lamb,
who was slain for us, and who redeemed us in His blood.
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CHAPTER 32 Back
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The merchant fleet of the Fall of 1836 has filled the Marine
Hospital of Quebec with the victims of a ship-typhoid fever of the worst kind,
which soon turned into an epidemic. Within the walls of that institution Mr.
Glackmeyer, the superintendent, with two of the attending doctors, and the
majority of the servants were swept away during the winter months.
I was, in the spring of 1837, almost the only one spared by that horrible pest.
In order not to spread terror among the citizens of Quebec, the physicians and I
had determined to keep that a secret. But, at the end of May, I was forced to
reveal it to Bishop Signaie, of Quebec; for I felt in my whole frame the first
symptoms of the merciless disease. I prepared myself to die, as very few who had
been attacked by it had escaped. I went to the bishop, told him the truth about
the epidemic, and requested him to appoint a priest immediately, as chaplain in
my place; for, I added, "I feel the poison running through my veins, and it
is very probable that I have not more than ten or twelve days to live."
The young Mons. D. Estimanville was chosen, and though I felt very weak, I
thought it was my duty to initiate him in his new and perilous work. I took him
immediately to the hospital, where he never had been before, and when at a few
feet from the door, I said: "My young friend, it is my duty to tell you
that there is a dangerous epidemic raging in that house since last Fall, nothing
has been able to stop it. The superintendent, two physicians, and most of the
servants have been its victims. My escape till now is almost miraculous. But
these last ten hours I feel the poison running through my whole body. You are
called by God to take my place; but before you cross the threshold of that
hospital, you must make the generous sacrifice of your life; for you are going
on the battle-field from which only few have come out with their lives."
The young priest turned pale, and said, "Is it possible that such a deadly
epidemic is raging where you are taking me?" I answered, "Yes; my dear
young brother, it is a fact, and I consider it my duty to tell you not to enter
that house, if you are afraid to die!" A few minutes of silence followed,
and it was a solemn silence indeed! He then took his handkerchief and wiped away
some big drops of sweat which were rolling from his forehead on his cheeks, and
said: "Is there a more holy and desirable way of dying than in ministering
to the spiritual and temporal wants of my brethren? No! If it is the will of God
that I should fall when fighting at this post of danger, I am ready. Let His
holy will be done."
He followed me into the pestilential house with the heroic step of the soldier
who runs at the command of his general to storm an impregnable citadel when he
is sure to fall. It took me more than an hour to show him all the rooms, and
introduce him to the poor, sick, and dying mariners.
I felt then so exhausted that two friends had to support me on my return to the
parsonage of St. Roche. My physicians were immediately called (one of them, Dr.
Rosseau, is still living), and soon pronounced my case so dangerous that three
other physicians were called in consultation. For nine days I suffered the most
horrible tortures in my brains, and the very marrow of my bones, from the fever
which so devoured my flesh as to seemingly leave but the skin. On the ninth day,
the physicians told the bishop who had visited me, that there was no hope of my
recovery. The last sacraments were administered tome, and I prepared myself to
die, as taught by the Church of Rome. The tenth day I was absolutely motionless,
and not able to utter a word. My tongue was parched like a piece of dry wood.
Through the terrible ravage on the whole system, my very eyes were so turned
inside their orbits, the white part only could be seen; no food could be taken
from the beginning of he sickness, except a few drops of cold water, which were
dropped through my teeth with much difficulty. But though all my physical
faculties seemed dead, my memory, intelligence, and soul were full of life, and
acting with more power than ever. Now and then, in the paroxysms of the fever, I
used to see awful visions. At one time, suspended by a thread at the top of a
high mountain, with my head down over a bottomless abyss; at another, surrounded
by merciless enemies, whose daggers and swords were plunged through my body. But
these were of short duration, though they have left such an impression on my
mind that I still remember the minutest details. Death had, at first, no terror
for me. I had done, to the best of my ability, all that my Church had told me to
do, to be saved. I had, every day, given my last cent to the poor, fasted and
done penance almost enough to kill myself; made my confessions with the greatest
care and sincerity; preached with such zeal and earnestness as to fill the whole
city with admiration.
My pharisaical virtues and holiness, in a word, were of such a glaring and
deceitful character, and my ecclesiastical superiors were so taken by them, that
they made the greatest efforts to persuade me to become the first Bishop of
Oregon and Vancouver.
One after the other, all the saints of heaven, beginning with the Holy Virgin
Mary, were invoked by me that they might pray God to look down upon me in mercy
and save my soul. On the thirteenth night, as the doctors were retiring, they
whispered to the Revs. Balillargeon and Parent, who were at my bedside: "He
is dead, or if not, he has only a few minutes to live. He is already cold and
breathless, and we cannot feel his pulse." Though these words had been said
in a very low tone, they fell upon my ears as a peal of thunder. The two young
priests, who were my devoted friends, filled the room with such cries that the
curate and the priest who had gone to rest, rushed to my room and mingled their
tears and cries with theirs.
The words of the doctor, "He is dead!" were ringing in my ears as the
voice of a hurricane. I suddenly saw that I was in danger of being buried alive;
no words can express the sense of horror I felt at that idea. A cold icy wave
began to move slowly, but it seemed to me, with irresistible force, from the
extremities of my feet and hands towards the heart, as the first symptoms of
approaching death. At that moment I made a great effort to see what hope I might
have of being saved, invoking the help of the blessed Virgin Mary. With
lightning rapidity, a terrible vision struck my mind; I saw all my good works
and penances, in which my Church had told me to trust for salvation, in the
balance of the justice of God. These were in one side of the scales, and my sins
on the other. My good works seemed only as a grain of sand compared with the
weight of my sins.*
This awful vision entirely destroyed my false and pharisaical security, and
filled my soul with an unspeakable terror. I could not cry to Jesus Christ, nor
to God, His Father, for mercy; for I sincerely believed what my Church had
taught me on that subject, that they were both angry with me on account of my
sins. With much anxiety I turned my thoughts, my soul, and hopes, towards St.
Anne and St. Philomene. The first was the object of my confidence, since the
first time I had seen the numberless crutches and other "Fx Votis"
which covered the church of "La Bonne St. Anne du Nord," and the
second was the saint a la mode. It was said that her body had lately been
miraculously discovered, and the world was filled with the noise of the miracles
wrought through her intercession. Her medals were on every breast, her pictures
in every house, and her name on all lips. With entire confidence in the will and
power of these two saints to obtain any favour for me, I invoked them to pray
God to grant me a few years more of life; and with the utmost honesty of
purpose, I promised to add to my penances, and to live a more holy life, by
consecrating myself with more zeal than ever to the service of the poor and the
sick. I added to my former prayer the solemn promise to have a painting of the
two saints put in St. Anne's Church, to proclaim to the end of the world their
great power in heaven, if they would obtain my cure and restore my health.
Strange to say! The last words of my prayer were scarcely uttered, when I saw
above my head St. Anne and St. Philomene sitting in the midst of a great light,
on a beautiful golden cloud. St. Anne was very old and grave, but St. Philomene
was very young and beautiful. Both were looking at me with great kindness.
However, the kindness of St. Anne was mixed with such an air of awe and gravity
that I did not like her looks; while St. Philomene had such an expression of
superhuman love and kindness that I felt myself drawn to here by a magnetic
power, when she said, distinctly: "You will be cured," and the vision
disappeared.
But I was cured, perfectly cured! At the disappearance of the two saints, I felt
as though an electric shock went through my whole frame; the pains were gone,
the tongue was untied, the nerves were restored to their natural and usual
power; my eyes were opened, the cold and icy waves which were fast going from
the extremities to the regions of my heart, seemed to be changed into a most
pleasant warm bath, restoring life and strength to every part of my body. I
raised my head, stretched out my hands, which I had not moved for three days,
and looking around, I saw the four priests. I said to them: "I am cured,
please give me something to eat, I am hungry."
Astonished beyond measure, two of them threw their arms around my shoulders to
help me to sit a moment, and change my pillow; when two others ran to the table,
which the kind nuns of Quebec had covered with delicacies in case I might want
them. Their joy was mixed with fear, for they all confessed to me afterwards
that they had at once thought that all this was nothing but the last brilliant
flash of light which the flickering lamp gives before dying away. But they soon
changed their minds when they saw that I was eating ravenously, and that I was
speaking to them and thanking God with a cheerful, though very feeble voice.
"What does this mean?" they all said. "The doctors told us last
evening that you were dead; and we have passed the night not only weeping over
your death, but praying for your soul, to rescue it from the flames of
purgatory, and now you look so hungry, so cheerful and well."
I answered: "It means that I was not dead, but very near dying, and when I
felt that I was to die, I prayed to St. Anne and St. Philomene to come to my
help and cure me; and they have come. I have seen them both, there above my
head. Ah! if I were a painter, what a beautiful picture I could make of that
dear old St. Anne and the still dearer Philomene! for it is St. Philomene who
has spoken to me as the messenger of the mercies of God. I have promised to have
their portraits painted and put into the church of The Good St. Anne du Nord."
While I was speaking thus, the priests, filled with admiration and awe, were
mute; they could not speak except with tears of gratitude. They honestly
believed with me that my cure was miraculous, and consented with pleasure to
sing that beautiful hymn of gratitude, the "Te Deum."
The next morning, the news of my miraculous cure spread through the whole city
with the rapidity of lightning, for besides a good number of the first citizens
of Quebec who were related to me by blood, I had not less than 1,800 penitents
who loved and respected me as their spiritual father.
To give an idea of the kind of interest of the numberless friends whom God had
given me when in Quebec, I will relate a single fact. The citizens who were near
our parsonage, having been told, by a physician, that the inflammation of my
brain was so terrible that the least noise, even the passing of carriages or the
walking of horses on the streets, was causing me real torture, they immediately
covered all the surrounding streets with several inches of straw to prevent the
possibility of any more noise.
The physicians, having heard of my sudden cure, hastened to come and see what it
meant. At first, they could scarcely believe their eyes. The night before they
had given me up for dead, after thirteen days' suffering with the most horrible
and incurable of diseases! And, there I was, the very next morning, perfectly
cured! No more pain, not the least remnant of fever, all the faculties of my
body and mind perfectly restored! They minutely asked me all the circumstances
connected with that strange, unexpected cure; and I told them simply but
plainly, how, at the very moment I expected to die, I had fervently prayed to
St. Anne and St. Philomene, and how they had come, spoken to me and cured me.
Two of my physicians were Roman Catholics, and three Protestants. They at first
looked at each other without saying a word. It was evident they were not all
partakers of my strong faith in the power of the two saints. While the Roman
Catholic doctors, Messrs. Parent and Rousseau, seemed to believe in my
miraculous cure, the Protestants energetically protested against that view in
the name of science and common sense.
Dr. Douglas put me the following questions, and received the following answers.
He said:
"Dear Father Chiniquy, you know you have not a more devoted friend in
Quebec than I, and you know me too well to suspect that I want to hurt your
religious feelings when I tell you that there is not the least appearance of a
miracle in your so happy and sudden cure. If you will be kind enough to answer
my questions, you will see that you are mistaken in attributing to a miracle a
thing which is most common and natural. Though you are perfectly cured, you are
very weak; please answer only 'yes' or 'no' to my questions, in order not to
exhaust yourself. Will you be so kind as to tell us if this is the first vision
you have had during the period of that terrible fever?"
Ans. "I have had many other visions, but I took them as being the effect of
the fever."
Doctor. "Please make your answers shorter, or else I will not ask you
another question, for it would hurt you. Tell us simply, if you have not seen in
those visions, at times, very frightful and terrible, and at others, very
beautiful things."
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "Have not those visions stamped themselves on your mind with such a
power and vividness that you never forget them, and that you deem them more
realities than mere visions of a sickly brain?"
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "Did you not feel sometimes much worse, and sometimes much better
after those visions, according to their nature?"
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "When at ease in your mind during that disease, were you not used
to pray to the saints, particularly to St. Anne and St. Philomene."
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "When you considered that death was very near (and it was indeed)
when you had heard my imprudent sentence that you had only a few minutes to
live, were you not taken suddenly, by such a fear of death as you never felt
before?"
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "Did you not then make a great effort to repel death from
you?"
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "Do you know that you are a man of an exceedingly strong will, and
that very few men can resist you when you want to do something? Do you not know
that your will is such an exceptional power that mountains of difficulties have
disappeared before you, here in Quebec? Have you not seen even me, with many
others, yielding to your will almost in spite of ourselves, to do what you
wanted?"
With a smile I answered, "Yes, sir."
Doctor. "Do you not remember seeing, many times, people suffering
dreadfully from toothache coming to us to have their teeth extracted, who were
suddenly cured at the sight of the knives and other surgical instruments we put
upon the table to use?"
I answered with a laugh, "Yes, sir. I have seen that very often, and it has
occurred to me once."
Doctor. "Do you think that there was a supernatural power, then, in the
surgical implements, and that those sudden cures of toothache were
miraculous?"
Ans. "No, sir!"
Doctor. "Have you not read the volume of the 'Medical Directory' I lent you
on typhoid fever, where several cures exactly like yours are reported?"
Ans. "Yes, sir."
Then addressing the physicians, Doctor Douglas said to them:
"We must not exhaust our dear Father Chiniquy. We are too happy to see him
full of life again, but from his answers you understand that there is no miracle
here. His happy and sudden cure is a very natural and common thing. The vision
was what we call the turning-point of the disease, when the mind is powerfully
bent on some very exciting object, when that mysterious thing of which we know
so little as yet, called the will, the spirit, the soul, fights as a giant
against death, in which battle, pains, diseases, and even death are put to
flight and conquered.
"My dear Father Chiniquy, from your own lips, we have it; you have fought,
last night, the fever and approaching death, as a giant. No wonder that you won
the victory, and I confess, it is a great victory. I know it is not the first
victory you have gained, and I am sure it will not be the last. It is surely God
who has given you that irresistible will. In that sense only does your cure come
from Him. Continue to fight and conquer as you have done last night, and you
will live a long life. Death will long remember its defeat of last night, and
will not dare approach you any more, except when you will be so old that you
will ask it to come as a friend to put an end to the miseries of this present
life. Good-bye."
And with friendly smiles, all the doctors pressed my hand and left me just as
the bishop and curate of Quebec, Mons. Ballargeon, my confessor, were entering
the room.
An old proverb says: "There is nothing so difficult as to persuade a man
who does not want to be persuaded." Though the reasoning and kind words of
the doctor ought to have been gladly listened to by me, they had only bothered
me. It was infinitely more pleasant, and it seemed then, more agreeable to God,
and more according to my faith in the power of the saints in heaven, to believe
that I had been miraculously cured. Of course, the bishop, with his coadjutor
and my Lord Turgeon, as well as my confessor, with the numberless priests and
Roman Catholics who visited me during my convalescence, confirmed me in my
views.
The skillful painter, Mr. Plamonon, recently from Rome, was called and painted,
at the price of two hundred dollars ($200) the tableau I had promised to put in
the church of St. Anne du Nord. It was one of the most beautiful and remarkable
paintings of that artist, who had passed several years in the Capital of Fine
Arts in Italy, where he had gained a very good reputation for his ability.
Three months after my recovery, I was at the parsonage of the curate of St.
Anne, the Rev. Mr. Ranvoize, a relative of mine. He was about sixtyfive years of
age, very rich, and had a magnificent library. When young, he had enjoyed the
reputation of being one of the best preachers in Canada. Never had I been so
saddened and scandalized as I was by him on this occasion. It was evening when I
arrived with my tableau. As soon as we were left alone, the old curate said:
"Is it possible, my dear young cousin, that you will make such a fool of
yourself tomorrow? That socalled miraculous cure is nothing but 'naturoe suprema
vis,' as the learned of all ages have called it. Your so-called vision was a
dream of your sickly brain, as it generally occurs in the moment of the supreme
crisis of the fever. It is what is called 'the turning-point' of the disease,
when a desperate effort of nature kills or cures the patient. As for the vision
of that beautiful girl, whom you call St. Philomene, who had done you so much
good, she is not the first girl, surely, who has come to you in your dreams, and
done you good!" At these words he laughed so heartily that I feared he
would split his sides. Twice he repeated this unbecoming joke.
I was, at first, so shocked at this unexpected rebuke, which I considered as
bordering on blasphemy, that I came very near taking my hat without answering a
word, to go and spend the night at his brother's; but after a moment's
reflection, I said to him: "How can you speak with such levity on so solemn
a thing? Do you not believe in the power of the saints, who being more holy and
pure than we are, see God face to face, speak to Him and obtain favours which He
would refuse us rebels? Are you not the daily witness of the miraculous cures
wrought in your own church, under your own eyes? Why those thousands of crutches
which literally cover the walls of your church?" My strong credulity, and
the earnestness of my appeal to the daily miracles of which he was the witness,
and above all, the mention of the numberless crutches suspended all over the
walls of his church, brought again from him such a Homeric laugh, that I was
disconcerted and saddened beyond measure. I remained absolutely mute; I wished I
had never come into such company.
When he had laughed at me to his heart's content, he said: "My dear cousin,
you are the first one to whom I speak in this way. I do it because, first: I
consider you a man of intelligence, and hope you will understand me. Secondly:
because you are my cousin. Were you one of those idiotic priests, real
blockheads, who form the clergy today; or, were you a stranger to me, I would
let you go your way, and believe in those ridiculous, degrading superstitions of
our poor ignorant and blind people, but I know you from your infancy, and I have
known your father, who was one of my dearest friends; the blood which flows in
your veins, passes thousands of times every day through my heart. You are very
young and I am old. It is a duty of honour and conscience in me to reveal to you
a thing which I have thought better to keep till now, a secret between God and
myself. I have been here more than thirty years, and though our country is
constantly filled with the noise of the great and small miracles wrought in my
church every day, I am ready to swear before God, and to prove to any man of
common sense, that not a single miracle has been wrought in my church since I
have come here. Every one of the facts given to the Canadian people as
miraculous cures are sheer impositions, deceptions, the work of either fools, or
the work of skillful impostors and hypocrites, whether priests or laymen.
Believe me, my dear cousin, I have studied carefully the history of all those
crutches. Ninety-nine out of a hundred have been left by poor, lazy beggars,
who, at first, thought with good reason that by walking from door to door with
one or two crutches, they would create more sympathy and bring more into their
purses; for how many will indignantly turn out of doors a lazy, strong and
healthful beggar, who will feel great compassion, and give largely to a man who
is crippled, unable to work, and forced to drag himself painfully on crutches?
Those crutches are then passports from door to door, they are the very keys to
open both the hearts and purses. But the day comes when that beggar has bought a
pretty good farm with his stolen alms; or when he is really tired, disgusted
with his crutches and wants to get rid of them! How can he do that without
compromising himself? By a miracle! Then he will sometimes travel again hundreds
of miles from door to door, begging as usual, but this time he asks the prayers
of the whole family, saying: 'I am going to the "good St. Anne du Nord"
to ask her to cure my leg (or legs). I hope she will cure me, as she had cured
so many others. I have great confidence in her power!' Each one gives twice,
nay, ten times as much as before to the poor cripple, making him promise that if
he is cured, he will come back and show himself, that they may bless the good
St. Anne with him. When he arrives here, he gives me sometimes one, sometimes
five dollars, to say mass for him. I take the money, for I would be a fool to
refuse it when I know that his purse has been so well filled. During the
celebration of the mass, when he receives the communion, I hear generally, a
great noise, cries of joy! A miracle! A miracle!! The crutches are thrown on the
floor, and the cripple walks well as you or I! And the last act of that
religious comedy is the most lucrative one, for he fulfill his promise of
stopping at every house he had ever been seen with his crutches. He narrates how
he was miraculously cured, how his feet and legs became suddenly all right.
Tears of joy and admiration flow from eye to eye. The last cent of that family
is generally given to the impostor, who soon grows rich at the expense of his
dupes. This is the plain but true story of ninety-nine out of every hundred of
the cures wrought in my church. The hundredth, is upon people as honest, but,
pardon me the expression, as blind and superstitious as you are; they are really
cured, for they were really sick. But their cures are the natural effects of the
great effort of the will. It is the result of a happy combination of natural
causes which work together on the frame, and kill the pain, expel the disease
and restore the health, just as I was cured of a most horrible toothache, some
years ago. In the paroxysm I went to the dentist and requested him to extract
the affected tooth. Hardly had his knife and other surgical instruments come
before my eyes than the pain disappeared. I quietly took my hat and left,
bidding a hearty 'good-bye' to the dentist, who laughed at me every time we met,
to his heart's content.
"One of the weakest points of our religion is in the ridiculous, I venture
to say, diabolical miracles, performed and believed every day among us, with the
so-called relics and bones of the saints. But, don't you know that, for the most
part, these relics are nothing but chickens' or sheeps' bones. And what could I
not say, were I to tell you what I know of the daily miraculous impostures of
the scapulars, holy water, chaplets and medals of every kind. Were I a pope, I
would throw all these mummeries, which come from paganism, to the bottom of the
sea, and would present to the eyes of the sinners, nothing but Christ and Him
crucified as the object of their faith, invocation and hope, for this life and
the next, just as the Apostles Paul, Peter and James do in their Epistles."
I cannot repeat here, all that I heard that night from that old relative,
against the miracles, relics, scapulars, purgatory, false saints and ridiculous
practices of the Church of Rome. It would take too long, for he spoke three
hours as a real Protestant. Sometimes what he said seemed to me according to
common sense, but as it was against the practices of my church, and against my
personal practices, I was exceedingly scandalized and pained, and not at all
convinced. I pitied him for having lost his former faith and piety. I told him
at the end, without ceremony: "I heard, long ago, that the bishops did not
like you, but I knew not why. However, if they could hear what you think and say
here about the miracles of St. Anne, they would surely interdict you."
'Will you betray me?" he added, "and will you report our conversation
to the bishop?" "No," my cousin, " I replied, "I would
prefer to be burnt to ashes. I will not sell your kind hospitality for the
traitor's money." It was two o'clock in the morning when we parted to go to
our sleeping rooms. But that night was again a sleepless one to me. Was it not
too sad and strange for me to see that that old and learned priest was secretly
a Protestant!
The next morning the crowds began to arrive, not by hundreds, but by thousands,
from the surrounding parishes. The channel between "L'Isle d'Orleans"
and St. Anne, was literally covered with boats of every size, laden with men and
women who wanted to hear from my own lips, the history of my miraculous cure,
and see, with their own eyes, the picture of the two saints who had appeared to
me. At ten a.m., more than 10,000 people were crowded inside and outside the
wall of the church.
No words can give an idea of my emotion and of the emotion of the multitude
when, after telling them in a single and plain way, what I then considered a
miraculous fact, I disclosed the picture, and presented it to their admiration
and worship. There were tears rolling on every cheek and cries of admiration and
joy from every lip. The picture represented me dying in my bed of sufferings,
and the two saints seen at a distance above me and stretching their hands as if
to say: "You will be cured." It was hung on the walls, in a
conspicuous place, where thousands and thousands have come to worship it from
that day to the year 1858, when the curate was ordered by the bishop to burn it,
for it had pleased our merciful God that very year, to take away the scales
which were on my eyes and show me His saving light, and I had published all over
Canada, my terrible, though unintentional error, in believing in that false
miracle. I was so honest in my belief in a miraculous cure, and the apparition
of the two saints had left such a deep impression on my mind, that, I confess it
to my shame, the first week after my conversion, I very often said to myself:
"How is it that I now believe that the Church of Rome is false, when such a
miracle has been wrought on me as one of her priests?" But, our God, whose
mercies are infinite, knowing my honesty when a slave of Popery, was determined
to give me the full understanding of my errors in this way.
About a month after my conversion, in 1858, I had to visit a dying Irish convert
from Romanism, who had caught in Chicago, the same fever which so nearly killed
me at the Marine Hospital of Quebec. I again caught the disease, and during
twelve days, passed through the same tortures and suffered the same agonies as
in 1837. But this time, I was really happy to die; there was no fear for me to
see the good works as a grain of sand in my favour, and the mountains of my
iniquities in the balance of God against me. I had just given up my pharisaical
holiness of old; it was no more in my good works, my alms, my penances, my
personal efforts, I was trusting to be saved; it was in Jesus alone. My good
works were no more put by me in the balance of the justice of God to pay my
debts, and to appeal for mercy. It was the blood of Jesus, the Lamb slain from
the foundation of the world for me, which was in the balance. It was the tears
of Jesus, the nails, the crown of thorns, the heavy cross, the cruel death of
Jesus only, which was there to pay my debts and to cry for mercy. I had no fear
then, for I knew that I was saved by Jesus, and that that salvation was a
perfect act of His love, His mercy, and His power; consequently I was glad to
die.
But when the doctor had left me, the thirteenth day of my sufferings, saying the
very same words of the doctors of Quebec: "He had only a few minutes to
live, if he be not already dead," the kind friends who were around my bed,
filled the room with their cries! Although for three or four days I had not
moved a finger, said a single word, or given any sign of life, I was perfectly
conscious. I had heard the words of the doctor, and I was glad to exchange the
miseries of this short life for that eternity of glory which my Saviour had
bought for me. I only regretted to die before bringing more of my dear
countrymen out of the idolatrous religion of Rome, and from the lips of my soul,
I said: "Dear Jesus, I am glad to go with Thee just now, but if it be Thy
will to let me live a few years more, that I may spread the light of the Gospel
among my countrymen; grant me to live a few years more, and I will bless Thee
eternally, with my converted countrymen, for Thy mercy." This prayer had
scarcely reached the mercy-seat, when I saw a dozen bishops marching toward me,
sword in hand to kill me. As the first sword raised to strike was coming down to
split my head, I made a desperate effort, wrenched it from the hand of my
would-be murderer, and struck such a blow on his neck that his head rolled on to
the floor. The second, third, fourth, and so on to the last, rushed to kill me;
but I struck such terrible blows on the necks of every one of them, that twelve
heads were rolling on the floor and swimming in a pool of blood. In my
excitement I cried to my friends around me: "Do you not see the heads
rolling and the blood flowing on the floor?"
And suddenly I felt a kind of electric shock from head to foot. I was cured!
perfectly cured!! I asked my friends for something to eat; I had not taken any
food for twelve days. And with tears of joy and gratitude to God, they complied
with my request. This last was not only the perfect cure of the body, but it was
a perfect cure of the soul. I understood then clearly that the first was not
more miraculous than the second. I had a perfect understanding of the diabolical
forgeries and miracles of Rome. It was in both cases, I was not cured or saved
by the saints, the bishops or the Popes, but by my God, through His Son Jesus.
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CHAPTER 33 Back
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The 21st of September, 1833, was a day of desolation to me. On
that day I received the letter of my bishop appointing me curate of Beauport.
Many times, I had said to the other priests, when talking about our choice of
the different parishes, that I would never consent to be curate of Beauport.
That parish, which is a kind of suburb of Quebec, was too justly considered the
very nest of the drunkards of Canada. With a soil of unsurpassed fertility,
inexhaustible lime quarries, gardens covered with most precious vegetables and
fruits, forests near at hand, to furnish wood to the city of Quebec, at their
doors, the people of Beauport, were, nevertheless, classed among the poorest,
most ragged and wretched people of Canada. For almost every cent they were
getting at the market went into the hands of the saloon-keepers. Hundreds of
times I had seen the streets which led from St. Roch to the upper town of Quebec
almost impassable, when the drunkards of Beauport were leaving the market to go
home. How many times I heard them fill the air with their cries and blasphemies;
and saw the streets reddened with their blood when fighting with one another,
like mad dogs!
The Rev. Mr. Begin, who was their cure since 1825, had accepted the moral
principles of the great Roman Catholic theologian Liguori, who says, "that
a man is not guilty of the sin of drunkenness, so long as he can distinguish
between a small pin and a load of hay." Of course the people would not find
themselves guilty of sin, so long as their eyes could make that distinction.
After weeping to my heart's content at the reading of the letter from my bishop,
which had come to me as a thunderbolt, my first thought was that my misfortune,
though very great, was not irretrievable. I knew that there were many priests
who were as anxious to become curates of Beauport as I was opposed to it. My
hope was that the bishop would be touched by my tears, if not convinced by my
arguments, and that he would not persist in putting on my shoulders a burden
which they could not carry. I immediately went to the palace, and did all in my
power to persuade his lordship to select another priest for Beauport. He
listened to my arguments with a great deal of patience and kindness, and
answered:
"My dear Mr. Chiniquy, you forget too often, that 'implicit and perfect
obedience to his superiors is the virtue of a good priest. You have given me a
great deal of trouble and disappointment by refusing to relieve the good bishop
Provencher of his too heavy burden. It was at my suggestion, you know very well,
that he had selected you to be his coworker along the coasts of the Pacific, by
consenting to become the first Bishop of Oregon. Your obstinate resistance to
your superiors in that circumstance, and in several other cases, is one of your
weak points. If you continue to follow your own mind rather than obey those whom
God has chosen to guide you, I really fear for your future. I have already too
often yielded to your rebellious character. Through respect to myself, and for
your own good, today I must force you to obey me. You have spoken of the
drunkenness of the people of Beauport, as one of the reasons why I should not
put you at the head of that parish; but this is just one of the reasons why I
have chosen you. You are the only priest I know, in my diocese, able to struggle
against the long-rotted and detestable evil, with a hope of success.
"'Quod scriptum scriptum est.' Your name is entered in our official
registers as the curate of Beauport; it will remain there till I find better
reasons than those you have given me to change my mind. After all, you cannot
complain; Beauport is not only one of the most beautiful parishes of Canada, but
it is one of the most splendid spots in the world. It is, besides, a parish
which gives great revenues to its curate. In your beautiful parsonage, at the
door of the old capital of Canada, you will have the privileges of the city, and
the enjoyments of some of the most splendid sceneries of this continent. If you
are not satisfied with me today, I do not know what I can do to please
you."
Though far from being reconciled to my new position, I saw there was no help; I
had to obey, as my predecessor, Mr. Begin, was to sell all his house furniture,
before taking charge of his far distant parish, La Riviere Ouelle, he kindly
invited me to go and buy, on long credit, what I wished for my own use, which I
did. The whole parish was on the spot long before me, partly to show their
friendly sympathy for their last pastor, and partly to see their new curate. I
was not long in the crowd without seeing that my small stature and my leanness
were making a very bad impression on the people, who were accustomed to pay
their respects to a comparatively tall man, whose large and square shoulders
were putting me in the shade. Many jovial remarks, though made in halfsuppressed
tones, came to my ears, to tell me that I was cutting a poor figure by the side
of my jolly predecessor.
"He is hardly bigger than my tobacco box," said one not far from me:
"I think I could put him in my vest pocket."
"Has he not the appearance of a salted sardine!" whispered a woman to
her neighbour, with a hearty laugh.
Had I been a little wiser, I could have redeemed myself by some amiable or funny
words, which would have sounded pleasantly in the ears of my new parishioners.
But, unfortunately for me, that wisdom is not among the gifts I received. After
a couple of hours of auction, a large cloth was suddenly removed from a long
table, and presented to our sight an incredible number of wine and beer glasses,
of empty decanters and bottles, of all sizes and quality. This brought a burst
of laughter and clapping of hands from almost every one. All eyes were turned
towards me, and I heard from hundreds of lips: "This is for you, Mr.
Chiniquy." Without weighing my words, I instantly answered: "I do not
come to Beauport to buy wine glasses and bottles, but to break them."
These words fell upon their ears as a spark of fire on a train of powder.
Nine-tenths of that multitude, without being very drunk, had emptied from four
to ten glasses of beer or rum, which Rev. Mr. Begin himself was offering them in
a corner of the parsonage. A real deluge of insults and cursings overwhelmed me;
and I soon saw that the best thing I could do was to leave the place without
noise, and by the shortest way.
I immediately went to the bishop's place, to try again to persuade his lordship
to put another curate at the head of such a people. "You see, my
lord," I said, "that by my indiscreet and rash answer I have for ever
lost the respect and confidence of that people. They already hate me; their
brutal cursings have fallen upon me like balls of fire. I prefer to be carried
to my grave next Sabbath, than have to address such a degraded people. I feel
that I have neither the moral nor the physical power to do any good there."
"I differ from you," replied the bishop. "Evidently the people
wanted to try your mettle, by inviting you to buy those glasses, and you would
have lost yourself by yielding to their desire. Now they have seen that you are
brave and fearless. It is just what the people of Beauport want; I have known
them for a long time. It is true that they are drunkards; but, apart from that
vice, there is not a nobler people under heaven. They have, literally, no
education, but they possess marvelous common sense, and have many noble and
redeeming qualities, which you will soon find out. You took them by surprise
when you boldly said you wanted to break their glasses and decanters. Believe
me, they will bless you, if by the grace of God, you fulfill your prophecy;
though it will be a miracle if you succeed in making the people of Beauport
sober. But you must not despair. Trust in God; fight as a good soldier, and
Jesus Christ will win the victory." Those kind words of my bishop did me
good, though I would have preferred being sent to the backwoods of Canada, than
to the great parish of Beauport. I felt that the only thing that I had to do was
to trust in God for success, and to fight as if I were to gain the day. It came
to my mind that I had committed a great sin by obstinately refusing to become
Bishop of Oregon, and my God, as a punishment, had given me the very parish for
which I felt an almost insurmountable repugnance.
Next Sunday was a splendid day, and the church of Beauport was filled to its
utmost capacity by the people, eager to see and hear, for the first time, their
new pastor. I had spent the last three days in prayers and fastings. God knows
that never a priest, nor any minister of the Gospel, ascended the pulpit with
more exalted views of his sublime functions than I did that day, and never a
messenger of the Gospel had been more terrified than I was, when in that pulpit,
by the consciousness of his own demerits, inability and incompetency, in the
face of the tremendous responsibilities of his position. My first sermon was on
the text: "Woe is unto me, if I preach not the Gospel" (1 Cor. ix.
16). With a soul and heart filled with the profoundest emotions, a voice many
times suffocated by uncontrollable sobs, I expounded to them some of the awful
responsibilities of a pastor. The effect of the sermon was felt to the last day
of my priestly ministry in Beauport.
After the sermon, I told them: "I have a favour to ask of you. As it is the
first, I hope you will not rebuke me. I have just now given you some of the
duties of your poor young curate towards you; I want you to come again this
afternoon at half-past two o'clock, that I may give you some of your duties
towards your pastor." At the appointed hour the church was still more
crowded than in the morning, and it seemed to me that my merciful God blessed
still more that second address than the first.
The text was: "When he (the shepherd) putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth
before them, and the sheep follow him; for they know his voice" (Jno. x.
4).
Those two sermons on the Sabbath were a startling innovation in the Roman
Catholic Church of Canada, which brought upon me, at once, many bitter remarks
from the bishop and surrounding curates. Their unanimous verdict was that I
wanted to become a little reformer. They had not the least doubt that in my
pride I wanted to show the people "that I was the most zealous priest of
the country." This was not only whispered from ear to ear among the clergy,
but several times it was thrown into my face in the most insulting manner.
However, my God knew that my only motives were, first, to keep my people away
from the taverns, by having them before their altars during the greatest part of
the Sabbath day; second, to impress more on their minds the great saving and
regenerating truths I preached, by presenting them twice in the same day under
different aspects. I found such benefits from those two sermons, that I
continued the practice during the four years I remained in Beauport, though I
had to suffer and hear, in silence, many humiliating and cutting remarks from
many co-priests.
I had not been more than three months at the head of that parish, when I
determined to organize a temperance society on the same principles as Father
Mathew, in Ireland. I opened my mind, at first, on that subject to the bishop,
with the hope that he would throw the influence of his position in favour of the
new association, but, to my great dismay and surprise, not only did he turn my
project into ridicule, but absolutely forbade me to think any more of such an
innovation. "These temperance societies are a Protestant scheme," he
said. "Preach against drunkenness, but let the respectable people who are
not drunkards alone. St. Paul advised his disciple Timothy to drink wine. Do not
try to be more zealous than they were in those apostolic days."
I left the bishop much disappointed, but did not give up my plan. It seemed to
me if I could gain the neighbouring priests to join with me in my crusade I
wanted to preach against the usage of intoxicating drinks, we might bring about
a glorious reform in Canada, as Father Mathew was doing in Ireland. But the
priests, without a single exception, laughed at me, turned my plans into
ridicule, and requested me, in the name of common sense, never to speak any more
to them of giving up their social glass of wine. I shall never be able to give
any idea of my sadness, when I saw that I was to be opposed by my bishop and the
whole clergy in the reform which I considered then, more and more every day, the
only plank of salvation, not only of my dear people of Beauport, but of all
Canada. God only knows the tears I shed, the long sleepless nights I have passed
in studying, praying, meditating on that great work of Beauport. I had recourse
to all the saints of heaven for more strength and light; for I was determined,
at any cost, to try and form a temperance society. But every time I wanted to
begin, I was frightened by the idea, not only of the wrath of the whole clergy,
which would hunt me down, but still more of the ridicule of the whole country,
which would overwhelm me in case of a failure. In these perplexities, I thought
I would do well to write to Father Mathew and ask him his advice and the help of
his prayers. That noble apostle of temperance of Ireland answered me in an
eloquent letter, and pressed me to begin the work in Canada as he had done in
Ireland, relying on God, without paying any attention to the opposition of man.
The wise and Christian words of that great and worthy Irish priest, came to me
as the voice of God; and I determined to begin the work at once, though the
whole world should be against me. I felt that if God was in my favour, I would
succeed in reforming my parish and my country in spite of all the priests and
bishops of the world, and I was right. Before putting the plough into the
ground, I had not only prayed to God and all His saints, almost day and night,
during many months, but I had studied all the best books written in England,
France and the United States, on the evils wrought by the use of intoxicating
drinks. I had taken a pretty good course of anatomy in the Marine Hospital under
the learned Dr. Douglas.
I was then well posted on the great subject I was to bring before my country. I
knew the enemy I was to attack. And the weapons which would give him the death
blow were in my hands. I only wanted my God to strengthen my hands and direct my
blows. I prayed to Him, and in His great mercy He heard me.